I have too, for many times, asked those questions before. I tried my very best to make life happy, to aim to make others around me happy as I thought that would make me happy. I found myself failing miserably to please everyone, to try to put a smile on my parents' face, to be helpful, to do good works, to be a good person. Still deep down, I was not truly happy. What really, was happiness? What really is the purpose of life? To grow up, to get a job, to get married, to have children (while working), to work, and then continue to work, perhaps go for holidays (every now and then) but is that really all life is about?
I have tried to enjoy life and I knew deep down, I was still not satisfied. Life is still far from the perfect picture that I had in mind. There must be something more than this, I realised.
As I look at the world around me, people are full of strive, they are not happy, they seem to be so temperamental, two faces, dishonest and moaning and complaining about everything. All these made me even sadder. I just don't want to be like them! Somehow, even before I knew that there was more than what I see, I already despise what I was seeing. I wanted the world where people live in peace, people love and not hate one another, people encourages and not blaming and shaming each other, a world where children can truly enjoy being children and the adults can truly be who they taught their children to be.
It was not until I read the teaching of Jesus that I finally understood, I am living in a fallen world. A world who was once beautiful and without blemish, a world of perfection and love but it is no longer the same as it used to be now. Hence, all the dissatisfaction that I felt and the injustice that I could not explain. This is a dark world, ill-stricken with sinfulness.
Still I did not know what to do but Jesus found me. He told me that there is hope. There is a world awaiting us and we don't have to wait until we die to get there. It is the life born of the Spirit, to live in His presence now and forevermore, to feel His touch, to experience His grace and mercy, to know the joy of His forgiveness, to understand the real meaning of love. This is heaven on earth, the perfect place that I have always dreamt to live in. Although it is still yet to be completely fulfill for "Now we see only an indistinct image in a mirror, but then we will be face to face. Now what I know is incomplete, but then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known" ( I Corinthians 13:12)
And although yet at present we do not see every everything subject to Him, but we do see Jesus...(Hebrews 2:8)
For this reason alone, I know my life is not a coincidence. As I behold His face, I know that without Him, my life will have no meaning whatsoever.
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